unsure

Dark emotions taking over me,
Haunting my every thought
Shattering all my dreams
Destroying my happy memories.
Where did I go wrong?
What did I do to deserve this?
Am I really such a waste that i'm forced to live in this hell?
Betrayed by my own reality
Forced to live this lie...

To put on this front, my facade... to pretend!
What you see isn't me, you see the Jenni who is boisterous, enthusiastic and always joking about...
Never before has anyone seen the Jenni that climbs into her bed at night weeps into her pillow... cries herself to sleep.
The Jenni whose idea of relief is to take a blade to her body, mutilation in its most destructive form... you see the effects... not the cause of my misery!